Missing you?

I apologize for not sounding more enthusiastic on the phone. You asked if I missed you- I was uncertain of how to respond. What were your intentions with that question anyway? Do you need to hear that I miss you as an added ego boost- to help you feel better about yourself? Or, were you missing me and contemplating the admission, making sure that I felt the same first.

You know that I'll always love you- you do not need to ask. But currently, my number one task while you are away, is to get over you. You may not like it and I'm sure you will not always agree with my methods. However, you need to know, I cannot spend my time contemplating your beauty- longing to have you back with me. I cannot allow myself the luxury of missing you right now.

Your actions before you left made everything clear- we must end. Truth be told, your memory is entangled in resentment right now and I am enjoying my freedom- i do not miss you. I'm seeing more clearly without you here to blind me. You cannot manipulate me with your hugs and kisses. I'm sorry that this hurts, but I must survive and I will do whatever it takes. I will hurt you- I need to- but I guess that makes us even.